Abha's Perspectoscope

Humdard - Translation

Pal, do pal, ki hi kyun hai zindagi
Why is this life just a couple of moments long..
Iss, pyar, ko hai sadiyaan kaafi nahi
even centuries aren't sufficient for the love we share
Toh khuda se maang lun
So I am going to ask God
Mohalat main ik nayi
to give me some more time
Rehna hai bas yahaan
'cause I just want to be here
Ab door tujhse jaana nahi
I don't ever what to go away from you
Jo tu mera humdard hai
Jo tu mera humdard hai
since you are the one I share my heart with
Suhaana har dard hai
all this pain seems beautiful
Jo tu mera humdard hai
since you are the one I share my heart with :)

Humdard... my version

Something :)

A little bit of something can mean so much
believe me when I say I tell you that I had no hunch...
So your smile seems to fix all that is wrong
And yes, together is exactly where we belong...
all this distance and the time apart scares
anger's a waste and the silence just blares...
You fill me up with emotions abundant
and complement me like none...
The feeling is so perfect and makes me just shine
just like your eyes do when you look into mine :)

Burn - I will

I feel you like I feel myself
your emotions are like my own
I bare myself to you - heart and soul
like you did - and away I'm blown -

Unaware and unguarded by your charm
Like a sunflower to the sun - from dusk to dawn
Come hold my hand and never let go
cause you're like the wind that makes me flow

Nothing's difficult unless we make it so
all we need in our heart is to be sure
To be a part of you is all I desire
the distance just triggers confusion and ire

Take a step and I'll take two my dear
just give me a sign loud and clear
The void kills me every second
the pain pounds in my head
Then I hear your voice clear
all the words we've shared and said

I pull myself together to go through another day
live through it just to hear what you have to say
Just wishing for me to be stronger
to face and accept my destiny's whisper

To make or break me
its all written by Him
All I do is to patiently wait
burn each day but never dim.

मैं

ज़िन्दगी क्या मोड़ ले ये कोई नहीं जानता है
ये एक ऐसा सच है जो कठिन होता मानना है

सब यही सोचते हैं कि वो इस ओर चलें हैं
मंजिल उस ओर है ये तो कोई नहीं बताता है

ठोकर जब लगे तब ये एहसास होता है
कि हम अकेले मुसाफिर हैं और कोई राजदार नहीं होता है

इस जीवन में हर व्यक्ति का एक किरदार लिखा है
कोई साथ देता है, कोई सीख दे छोड़ता है

हर उतार-चड़ाव हमें कुछ बताना-दिखाना चाहते हैं
हर सुख-दुःख हमें और 'सुलझा' इंसान बनाना चाहते हैं

ज़रूरी है इसीलिए अपने संग कुछ वक़्त बिताना
क्यूंकि जो खुद को ही न जाना तो फिर क्या जाना

कहते हैं की अकेलापन मुश्किल बड़ा होता है
पर जो अकेलेपन में खुश रहे उसे दर्द भी कम होता है

अपने विचारों और रिश्तों पर नियंत्रण के लिए
खुद को जानना, पहचानना ज़रूरी होता है

कभी अपने आप से बात करो तो जानो
हम में जो रहता है वो हमेशां सच बोलता है

दुनियादारी से परे मैं जब अपने आप संग होती हूँ
दिल सुकून भरी ख़ुशी को महसूस करता है :)

I am my best friend...

'I' is one of the simplest words in the vocabulary but the more time you spend pondering the more depth it has. Too much of it and you're labelled as selfish and none of it makes you unaware of who you really are. The key lies in striking the right balance.

I was lost in a haze,
I thought it was my world...
I thought I could see clear,
but my sight was really blur...
I was almost happy in every moment
that went by each n every day...
I was sure I would survive,
despite the path being rough n dry...
'cause I had the faith in me,
that I could someday spread my wings n fly...

No Goodbye's for you

The past few months have been a cocktail of emotions. Most of it seems like a blur mostly cause of the intensity of it all. Imagine pitch darkness and the only way to feel any movement is the uneasiness in your abdomen - that feeling you get every time your on a moving ferris wheel. I've been wanting to pen my thoughts for quite sometime because that's how I normally release my energy - positive or negative. I know I have a lot to say - the ones who know me well would be nodding their heads in approval. Yes I - sometimes - do talk a lot - and sometimes I do make sense - however few those occasions may be. Unfortunately for me words and me have not been the very best of friends lately and thus I chose to maintain my distance until today. Cause the truth is no one can take my words away from me. No matter how successful I get or messed up I become my words shall never abandon me. They reflect my soul and I can never be away from me. I may choose to ignore it but reality is way powerful. You see there is a difference between need and want and a very thin line defines that. Am waiting for the commotion to settle down so that I can see the path I need to tread on. For now I just want to breath and feel the air in my lungs. Live every second of my life. Remember every smile I shared. There one thing I know for sure - I don't have any goodbye's for U. I never will.

...

manzil ki khabbar hai par raste ka hosh nahi...
chale ja rahe hain hum ismein unka koi dosh nahi...

The KEY

What an irony !

We live in a world where people are divided based on religion, caste, region, color, politics and what not and LIFE on the other hand looks at each of us equally. We all go through emotions, we all breath, eat, sleep, talk, think and ultimately succumb to death. There is no stopping that, really ! Have we ever paused our fast paced life and thought about it ? Trust me its no rocket science to figure this one out - then why do we witness a whole bunch of unwanted events all over the world ?

As a human, it is very disturbing.

Life is a mad journey, everyone goes through it, and it has its own funny way of teaching us lessons, thereby helping us grow as an individual with each experience. Every time we look back we see ourselves as a completely changed/different person - a doppelgänger.

Ultimately, we all search for peace in our lives in some way or the other. Think about it.

It might be in different forms - being happy about something or for someone, being satisfied or content with something or someone - sounds straightforward doesn't it ? But the real question is how many of us truly are.

The KEY is to not run behind something - and that by no means should stop you from dreaming big. One must set goals and work towards them - steadily - but the essence of life lies in the journey - so enjoy it as well. That, my friend, is extremely important.

A friend once told me "Never Assume, Never Expect" - wow sounds easy but its tough to stick to. But once you do, it makes you think of half a million times we do end up assuming a lot of things and half a million times we do expect a lot and that is the root of most of the issues in our lives and the world.

Just a thought people, do think about it. :)

Abby

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MANAGING A TEAM – An Engineer’s Perspective

Hello all, I have been hoping to blog here for a long time now and finally a simple conversation over an absolutely scrumptious lunch (for all those curious – Stir Crazy, must try!) with a set of colleagues made me understand this and thus compelled me to pen this down. The realization of how our (a set of engineers) conversation kept reverting back to discussing our ‘Managers’. No matter how hard we tried to change the topic we kept coming back to it!!

Conclusion of our lunch conversation: As engineers it is inevitable to not talk or even compare our Managers and their Managerial skills.

Well, I’ve been working as a PS Engineer for about a year and a half now and the purpose of this blog entry is to give an Engineer’s point of view on what they expect from their managers. We’ve all read and heard a lot of very learned and experienced (Project) Managers give their views on a wide variety of topics which are indeed very valuable. Thank you all. I am here to give mine, as an Engineer.

Needless to say a manager plays a very crucial role in the professional efficiency and productivity of an engineer. An engineer is like clay in the hands of a manager and it is up to the manager to guide and mould him/her. It’s a two way relationship: mentor-mentee if I may say. The mentee must have the right guidance from the mentor in order to perform efficiently and both together result in a perfectly functioning entity. As an Engineer, I would always look up to my manager and would try to imbibe his/her mannerisms, knowledge, the way of handling things/situations and basically all the good stuff. I could go on and on and therefore in a conscious effort to keep this short and thus fun to read I am going to break this into a few blog entries. And so I am going to list down a few qualities that I would look for in my (team/project) manager as an engineer part of a team:

1. - ORGANIZATIONAL SKILLS

No matter whether you (the manager) are on a single-project or multiple projects being unorganized is unaffordable. This also includes prioritizing what needs immediate attention and what can wait, also what must be taken care is that none of the tasks/clients get ignored/delayed for long.

2. - TIME MANAGEMENT

Truly speaking this does get covered under the organizational skills but the purpose of listing it separately is solely to highlight its importance. A manager can’t afford to “accidently” not be on calls – conflicting calls is completely a separate issue and sometimes unavoidable and understandable – or to make a client wait for you on the call (or as I like to call it a ‘big-no scenario’).

3. - COMMUNICATION SKILLS [both internally and with the client(s)]

I believe, being well connected to both the client as well as your team of engineers is truly a sign of a good manager. This helps maintain transparency within a team and help the manager understand and therefore resolve issues if any. Regular communication may also mean day to day depending on the demand of the phase in which the project currently is in.

4. - CRISIS MANAGEMENT

As a manager how well can you handle a crisis situation which may span over - two off your three resources on a vacation and you trying to meet a deadline or to that of an unhappy client – etc. This might involve you to help your team or the client handle a specific scenario resulting in either minimum loss of time, minimum expense (for the client) and so forth. A manager with something as simple as presence of mind in a stressful situation can tackle and control the situation efficiently. A confident manager always results in confident team – imagine yourself (the engineer) if your manager is freaking out over an issue in his cabin, disastrous!

In my attempt to keep this short I shall be back soon with more. Till then keep reading.

Second attempt: Left part of the face depicts being 'bored' ; the right part of the face depicts being 'happy'. The point is expressions of your face reflect your life.. thus its your choice to pick the colors you want to fill in... So @all paint happiness in your life cos its "UR LIFE" and you DESERVE it :)

My first attempt at painting - "Blue (the color of Lord Krishna) symbolizes the presence of God within self. The eternal truth.. the power.. is within us.. Our Soul."

Sweet Pain - LiFe...

The loudness of silence grips me,
the sweet pain within pierces deeply.
the depth of this loneliness,
my smile is a veil in distress -
no words are enough,
no support is tough.
I chose not express my emotions,
or even to propose a solution.
cos this is choice I choose to feel,
cos it tells me the world is really real.

It tells me that life is not a dream really,
cos only dreams turn out perfect and easy.
I choose to live through this pain,
cos life has its way of keeping me sane!

Life - so unpredictable...

The beauty of life lies in its ironies. Its only then you realize its true worth. You need not live a hundred years to experience this. But indeed time teaches you a lot. You as a human have no control over it but its your duty to be patient. Be sensible enough to recognize the difference between right and wrong or between good and bad. That doesn't mean you can't ever be wrong ! It is very much human to make mistakes - but once you figure it out and accept it and take steps to rectify it that's all that matters. Lifetime's may go by but if you live with a regret in your heart you will never be happy.
Make amends - make your life worth living...

I live...

Am not sure - where to start,

this emptiness inside my heart -

this hollowness so black - so dark,

the sadness within me: the lack of spark -

The cause of this - the reason I search,

the light that will quench this thirst.

The life I live, the time I pass,

I feel no gain, I feel no loss.

Days shine by and the nights roll by,

the colors change but its the same sky...

spring blossoms in followed by the summer,

summers to fall and fall to winter...

I rise, I fall, I sleep, I wake -

I live, I risk and mistakes I make.

days to months and months to years,

years to a lifetime; from cheers to tears -

I guess I long for something no less,

something that feels like "completeness".

They - the special ones !

To live is to care and love someone so,

their smile can make the world seem glow.

Their eyes can sparkle the world with giggles,

and the touch so tender can spread a shimmer of tickles.

The dazzle of their smile can light up a dull day,

and their faith can lead us through the darkest possible way.

Their loyalty can teach the essence of life,

a bonding that we would always aim to strive.

the 'understanding' forms the base of it all,

without which any relation would tumble and fall.

The most beautiful gift ever..

The most beautiful gift ever,

that can be given to a loved one...

or a beautiful moment shared,

with a stranger under the sun...

just a glimpse of the tender smile,

the shyness that melts inside...

the freshness in the air around you,

that makes the impossible seem true...

the most beautiful gift ever,

that can be shared between two...

are memories and memories galore,

be it one, many or a few...

no one can steal or take them away,

they are with you forever to stay...

in your heart fresh in a way,

just like sunshine if 'life' was a day !!!

Live life to the fullest people :D each memory would take you higher :)

This LIFETIME and more...

There is much that I have to say,

and so much more that I have to share.

Can you feel what I feel in my heart ?,

am I a long way or is it just the start ?

Can you hear the silence spread around ?

and see the threads of friendship with which we are bound?

Can you touch the skies when I hold your hand ?

is my life without your smile completely bland ?

Can you see the world happier when you close your eyes ?

or is it in my eyes is where your heart trurly lies ?

If I had a lifetime another either fair or tough

I think it just never would be really really enough.

To say and share the feeling that i feel,

To convey that my love is really real :)